Like this.

Yeah, Holding back, I've always been good at that, unattached. (yeah) 
Waiting for what's Coming next, Things i know i should address
I Feel more Together when i am a mess (Whoa). That's for moments that just came and went, 
Made amends with you, Then you overstepped that's a line You never should have crossed you 
have no respect stop with all the threats, Like the more i get to 'know' you i just know you less.
Nother' city i dont know well, Feeling too much like my old self...
Backsliding , Backsliding....
Got me in the Sad Feels, Got me at a standstill. Too much time Alone is when it gets real. (Ah)
Future doesnt pop up then the Past will. 
Outside that's the rear view. Now im going downhill, Dont know who im close with Going thru the Motions, Dont know who to trust when i....

i lie to myself and i cannot handle it, why to i waste so much time on things that i can't fix? All these things i hold inside and i just cant forget, Thought that i could let this go...



….Hell is EMPTY all the devils are already HERE….

Name is Madison, and I’m currently recovering, I have been physically tortured on a repetitive bases, abused from childhood and onward. the mental torment still around… I have not even had the attention span to get on here and think or type….

(as I go through this journey the LORD will heal me, its the only hope I have)….I still have hope…..

You’re not Alone…

Your heart is full of broken dreams; just a fading memory. And everything’s gone, but the pain Carries on. Lost in the rain again, when will it ever end? The arms of relief seem so out of reach. But I, I am here. I am with you. I will carry you through it all. I wont leave you, I will catch you when you feel like letting go; cuz you’re not, you’re not alone.

We’ve been burned, chained and depleted, Left alone we’re not defeated

I swear to God at night when I close my eyes, I can still see this little lost girl inside And I don’t know how to help her, I don’t know what to do Supposed to have this figured out but I’m so confused Everyday I felt a little less pain inside, But at that rate I knew I’d hurt until the day I died. I refuse to let the darkness have the last say So when it came to call my name I had to run the other way Maybe that’s what it takes, you have to tell the pain no, have to let the sick parts of your heart finally go, Make room for the light let it pull you in close And if you’re ever feeling low, you know where to go,…

We’ve been lost, been to the bottom
Beaten up, torn and forgotten.
Still we fight, we will survive
They Can’t kill the fire we feel inside.

We’ve been burned, chained and depleted, Left alone, We’re not defeated. Still we fight, we will survive they can’t kill the fire we feel inside.

Just like an army

Like an army, we all know it’s not all better yet But hold on, stay strong and never forget. Cause we’ve got more to give, more to live, more to be, More than our broken history. We’ll honor where we came from, see what the hurt was for, But we dont let our past hold us hostage anymore. One day we’re gonna wake up, we’re gonna be alright, We’ll look back and be happy that we kept ourselves alive….